I am
the last major contributor to this site. Judging from the
Memories, responses to
The 10 Questions, and
Q&A Responses already on the
Painseeker web site, I chose my position wisely after Ken Kincaid's
storming of Lance Wagner's precious Bastille allowed any of us to
contribute to the site. I assume that this minor revelation
has stirred a simple question in you.
Why
have I waited so long to write an article for Painseeker?
After all, a number of people consider me to be the person who
murdered Raychel Vanderhoff. Wouldn't I want to defend myself
immediately against those who have accused me?
I
guess I have more in common with David Vanderhoff than many of the
others who have written material here. I don't trust much that
has been written here. I don't believe that this site is a
memorial site for Raychel. Painseeker is an online
lynching by Lance Wagner and I'm the one being lynched. I am
being burned in effigy by "those who knew her best": Lance
Wagner, Laura Douglass, Ken Kincaid, and Geoffrey MacIntyre. I
do not believe that the other contributors have done this
intentionally, but they have validated this web site by
participating in this site.
Why
then have I contributed to this site at all? If I know this
site is biased, why should I validate it further by adding my own
perspective? Simple. My personal character has already
been assassinated by Lance and the others. Why shouldn't I
respond? Why did I wait until the end to respond? After
Lance and Laura started firing on me, I thought it best to wait
until everyone had at least one shot at me before firing back on my
own. What further harm could be done to me after Lance and
Laura had their turns at me? Answer: Not much.
I
know that Lance had his own fun with me by prematurely adding my
name to the
Questions and Answers
Form. I understand why, after the submissions of others on
this site, people might have questions ready to fire at me. By
having others submit questions to me before my own material came, I
would be placed on the immediate defense. However, his plan
backfired as no one took him up on his offer.
That
is not to say that I haven't already had my share of fun on the
site. I admit that I hacked into this site in March to post a nasty
poem (which was written by Lance Wagner himself) in the
Poetry section. When he
found it and posted his own warning, I decided to lie low until I
had a valid opportunity to state my case. At the time, I just
wanted to get his attention. Maybe it was wrong, but I accept
any blame you wish to award me.
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"I
don't fear any retribution from those who would slander me here.
They have already taken their best shots at me and (if you are
reading this with an open mind) they have failed." |
I'm
not in this site for self-glorification anyway. I assume that
immediately separates me from many of those who have previously
submitted material here. Many of them will never be known now
that Raychel is dead. This is their last stab at glory.
This
is not to say that those friends ever had any good intentions for
Raychel. Most of them tried to keep her under their control.
That was why her "friends" kept her addicted to drugs, put her under
contract, or "married" her (without proof I may add). If I
have the opportunity in the future, I will let you know their
secrets. I hope that causes some nervous phone calls over the
next few weeks.
I
don't fear any retribution from those who would slander me here.
They have already taken their best shots at me and (if you are
reading this with an open mind) they have failed.
If
you have already read material here, I assume you know that I
"kidnapped" Raychel Vanderhoff. I admit to the act, if not the
characterization of the effort. I believe many of you can
already guess why I acted in such a manner, but I will wait to tell
you in my own words (it requires more text than I am able to provide
this week). After you know why I did this, I believe you will
understand my motivations better.
I
refuse to remain Lance's straw man, waiting to be burned in effigy,
so I have agreed to submit my own material to this web site despite
the fact that it is biased against me. I have my own plans for
this web site anyway. Hopefully you will help me get my story
out, and we will all find out what happened to Raychel. If
Lance wants to turn this site into a memorial after that, he has my
blessing. He also has my skepticism, as I believe he has not
yet shown his true agenda for this site. What his real
intentions are, I can only guess.
In
the meantime, I must concentrate on my own agenda: The Truth.
Next
week I will give you my account of the night of Raychel's murder.
Then you will know what I know. I hope that will start us out
on the right foot together.
